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Writer's Block: Dear LiveJournal

How long have you been on Livejournal? What major life changes has LiveJournal witnessed?

To see my answer to this, check out my new account diamond_sky18 that I'll probably be more active on. It's semi-personal. I'm not sure, but fandoms may slowly creep into it. You don't have to friend me on there to check out that entry.

I'll still be around in some comms and all my fanfic will still be here though. :)

My Personality

I took this test online from a link given by my instructor for Personality Psychology. These are my results. The more you take it and get the same results, the more reliable the results.

My personalityCollapse )

The 5% Who Will/ My Story

Snagged from unvorsum

1 out of every 10 people are born Gay. That means 1 of every 10 people are instantly put down, given bad labels, left alone, put in a minority and so much more, all for something they didn't ask for.

Gay teens are turning to suicide as a way of escaping.

If you want to tell them that life will get better, and you respect them for who they are, copy and paste this. Most of you won't, but let's see the 5% of you who will.


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According to the BBC most people have only read an average of 6 out of this 100 classic books. bold the ones you have read. Italic the ones you have dabbled with (read just a part or a abridged version, seen a movie/rendition of it + put a * to those you're about to read).

1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings* - JRR Tolkien - My dad owns the trilogy but I haven't read them.
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte* -I own it but I've never read it.
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling (I've read two of them but I've seen all of the films thus far.)
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell* - want to read
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy*
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden*
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez*
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan*
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert (I read the first half.)
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov*
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding*
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker*
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray*
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens*
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

*I've wanted to read those but for some reason I haven't.



I fear now that school is starting again, we will drift apart. It would be so easy considering how I’ve been feeling.

I don’t want that to happen.

Mostly I just want you (however I can get you).

I don't want to forget how this summer changed me and I'm afraid I won't remember you were even here so intimately.

I miss you. Already.
 Stole this from the lovely mangobaby , who stole it from floatinsky . 

My personality:

I'm loud only when I'm high.
I'm obnoxious.
I'm sarcastic.
I'm cocky.
I cry easily.
I have a bad temper.
For the most part, I don't like people.
I'm easy to get along with.
I like to fight.
I have more enemies than friends.
I've smoked.
I've smoked weed.
I drink coffee.
I clean my room daily.

Other random facts...Collapse )



I've been addicted to tumblr so I've been neglecting my f-list for a while. I am doing better than I was a couple months ago. I'm consistently taking medication and I feel okay right now.

I'm taking a summer class for this month until the beginning of July. I'm actually going to class and taking a break from studying to post this. I have an exam on Monday. I'm considering staying for the second term but then I need to find a place to live because my housing will end after this term, so I need to figure something out for that. I'm hoping to graduate in the fall. I still have to change my plan of study and see my advisor so I can actually register for the fall.

I also need to find a job because I'm running out of money.

I'm trying to deal one step at a time. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.

That's it for now I guess. I'm sorry that I only tend to update when I'm in a really bad mood.


R/K Picspam and Fanmix

I was looking through my personal LJ and I found a fanmix that I made over a year ago when I first started shipping. So ~back in the day (January '09) these were the songs I thought represented their relationship. I modified the list to fit some songs I have discovered since then. Enjoy:

Something I wrote the other day

I wrote this on May 3, around 4 a.m.:

My brain is a switch. I shut it off when I want to avoid things. This is a skill I’ve acquired and I do it so well. My whole life I’ve been ignored, so I ignore. I avoid and avoid and avoid until I break. I know I’m fragile and I try to protect myself from pain in this way. It helps for a little while but it also causes me to miss out on some really awesome experiences.

I regret the things I didn’t do, the chances I never took. I can’t get those opportunities back and I feel horrible because of it. My life could be so much better than it is right now. I could have put this chapter behind me. Instead I must continue with the monotony of textbooks, classes, notes and exams and Powerpoint lectures.

I have no idea what I’m doing or where I’m going. I want to be in a place where I can feel okay. Right now, I just feel sick. Sick of everything. Of frustration. Of unhappiness. Of not being satisfied.

A small part of me seems to relish in the dissatisfaction because somehow I make everything feel unattainable or impossible. I can never sustain a deep relationship of any kind. Maybe I don’t feel worthy of such. I really don’t. Actually I hate myself and now I want to cry.

A lot of times I have the urge to cry and it hardly ever happens, which is frustrating in some ways but scary. The emotions turn into words instead of releasing themselves physically. Sometimes I just want the tears to flow until I’m all dried up, until my head throbs and my eyes sting. Fuck. I want everything to go away, hence the avoidance. I don’t know if I can ever be happy with anything. I’m not sure I know how to be free of turmoil.

What is life without turmoil, without storms brewing around and within us? Life can’t ever be calm. Conflicts rage, people disagree. I steer clear of the tempests around me as often as possible. The problems within suffice to occupy me.


Mar. 20th, 2010

I haven't posted that much lately since I haven't been feeling very well, as some of you know.  I was in a bad state a couple weeks ago and I'm still kind of there. I'm slowly improving though. I need to learn to take better care of myself.

Anyway, I started this challenge called the productivity100 for which I have to write 100 drabbles about Rob/Kristen. The words in brackets are the prompt words from the table. I'll post my latest three here. To see the others, you'll have to join withoutdrowning  or asoulenchanted . I can post them here too but it's kind of a pain. Maybe I'll just post the drabbles themselves and not the table.

The first drabble is PG-13, the other two are NC-17. They are based on these pics:
R/K back in May 2009Collapse )


A few drabblesCollapse )

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